"A Random Conversation", by Susana Laborde-Blaj

I never thought I would get to have a glimpse into a person’s soul when I entered Costco. I have been resisting going there, since I prefer to buy in small local stores, but I was looking for a big bag of raw cacao powder.

After looking in every aisle, at every item, and not finding it, I asked the person in Customer Service, who was extremely friendly and informed me that they didn’t have it anymore. My soul fell down to my feet.

We had been, and are, dealing with seeing our lovely cat, who is old and sick, deteriorate, and we are really trying to have the clarity to decide when to put her down and send her soul to a different realm. This is to explain that I really felt the need to boost my morale by consuming the magic substance that sometimes can give me comfort: chocolate!

Yes, I confess. Even knowing for sure that it couldn’t give me unconditional joy, or stop my cat from dying, I felt that having a Big Bag of Cacao would give me a sense that things were alright, at least for a moment.